and I think it’s going to pay off- even if only a little.
I hurt someone that I loved deeply. I hurt them very badly. And since that day (October 3rd), I’ve thought of him. Every. Single. Day. I talked to him maybe twice since, once to see what was up, but it was short. The other time was to say hey after I saw him at a football game (and ran away like a coward- luckily he didn’t see me). That’s about it though, I think.
And today I texted him. It’s been driving me nuts. I dated him for a little over 7 months. I loved him, still do. He was my best friend, and that’s what I miss the most. He was the sweetest, most beautiful guy I know, with the biggest, greatest heart. And I hurt him. I hate myself more and more every day for it.
But I texted him today. I finally couldn’t hold it in any longer. All I said was “hey :)”, but he immediately replied with “Hey!” After all this time, he found it in himself to talk to me, when he has every right to hate my guts. His heart is the most beautiful and pure I’ve seen, even with everything that’s happened to him- at home, and because of me. And he responded.
I’vemissedyousoGoddamnmuch.
